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Tuesday, 25 March 2008

  • i want to be strong but i feel weak.
    i want to be ambitious but my goals are out of my reach.  
    i want to be independent but i need the constant comfort and affection of another being.
    i want to be liked by others but i come off hostile.
    i want to be forgiving but i cant even seem to forgive myself.
    i want to forget my past but history seems to repeat itself.
    i want to be loved but i dont even know how to begin to love myself.

    in the midst of all this wanting and yearning, i find an incomplete soul lacking of all that it desires. i cannot build myself up without tearing myself down. how did i end up this way?


Sunday, 29 January 2006

  • i think love is...



    i dont know much of anything but mostly of the concept of love. i think about what is true love everday. and it hurts me because i dont think i can ever find true love because i give up too easily. im not trying to sound like i know what im talking about. but from my what ive concluded at this moment about love is that. everyone's concept on love is too perfect. that love is this magical thing that happens and after you fall in love it becomes rainbows and candies then thinking this feeling will last them a lifetime..

    but honestly... true love is a long journey. its not this straight and easy path of which you go straight ahead forever and ever. its a long winding road with many obstacles and often even other paths that branch off this path. its up to two people to follow the road and even if its treacherous - in the end, you still made it. and thats all that matters. if one's tired. stop walking and just take a break. and even if one decides to follow another path... chances are, there's probably a way back. but sometimes you'll hit a dead end. and in that case, there's not much you can do but turn around and follow another pathway. when you find true love... you go thru the blistering storms with them because you love them. even if they lied or restricted you or etc.

    i see true love within people and its not always necessarily perfect. love is simple, yet people make it so complicated. love brings problems and unhappy moments... but the concept of love itself isnt complex at all. its simply just wanting the best for the other person even if its not with you and willing to endure pain with them. even when its unbearable - to never give up. because love is fragile. if you give up easily.. then it was never love to begin with. 

    so my question is: why do people do things they're not suppose to do just so in the end they get hurt themselves? like in the movie, little black book, why did she snoop around. even though she knew there was a possibility that she was going to find something that would hurt her? why cant we just trust? why do people have such a hard time trusting eachother?

    "the road ahead is long and winding with eyes of faith, you'll find the way..."

     btw: happy chinese new year =)

     

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